fentyfendi-deactivated20220829:
I burned bridges because I CAN SWIM. Don’t ever think I need you.
Everyday I have to keep reminding myself that people who gave me my trauma will never acknowledge that I’m suffering from it, so it’s probably just best to keep my head up & moving forward.
I don’t have anyone to share this with, so I’ll just share it here instead… Someone tell me why this is a 1000% accurate representation of how my life has gone😂
Get the old version of you out your head. You are no longer your old self. You are who you want to be.
Choosing to heal will probably be your most dreaded, toughest decision you will ever make. But that decision will also change your life, and you are going to be so proud of yourself. This journey will show you how brave, fragile, resilient and stubborn you are. But most importantly, you will be so happy and proud you kept going, even when you wanted to go back.
Having family share personal information about you to your abuser is extremely traumatic and only furthers the hurt and pain that was initially inflected. Not to mention that it can halts all forms of healing by showing that no matter what you do, your abuser will always be there …
Every now and then I am reminded of the fact that outside of the four family members I have, I have absolutely no one to share things with. That fact hurts so much… I have so many different things I want to share and talk about with a friend and I just can’t… FML.
